SKYPE

I don't know whether I can continue this or not. It's just sometimes I miss you so much. I saw you standing in front of me but I can't do anything about it. We were talking, you were trying to make a conversation and I tried too but it just didn't work out well. Why? Where did all go wrong? Hurm.
Skype? Oh skype? I've never skyped with any boy since you left. If I did, just once, and he's my bff. When I looked through our conversation for this one past year, I cried. I remembered once on Thursday, Feb 3rd, you told me that, " Faren, I'm gonna sayang you more when I see you, balik la.". I was at Ipoh and you were at Cyberjaya. So we skyped all the time. You kept asking me to go back A.S.A.P. cause you missed me so much. :)
You always told me that you're gonna prove me that you're not gay and hehe you never failed to show your manly side to me. :) We used to play bingo and tic tac toe on skype and you lost like almost every games we played. haha. We played a lot of games on skype. IDK why were we so childish. haha. It was fun, seriously, it was fun and I miss it. I remember that you would just call me HANDSOME instead of BEAUTIFUL. haha  We were a weird couple indeed. haha. And we were like WOI, FUCK LA, EH STUPID, haha. So ganas la we both before this. Haha
 And we used to snapshot our pictures without each other's knowledge. I selalu curi-curi ambil gambar you and you pun! haha. And I would just stare at you without saying anything and then I smiled. I was so madly in love with you. I would just stare at you the whole day without doing anything else. But now IDK what I feel now. Is this obsession or love? I'm confused.
Our last skype session was on 22nd Sept. I was getting ready to go to Damansara and you were at home doing nothing. We were chatting on fb. I still remember how heartless you were on that day. I would never forget whatever you said to me on that day. And after all those mean things you said, you asked me to skype with you. What was that for? You told me that you didn't intentionally to hurt me with your words and you just wanted to show me your face expression when you said those hurtful words. I know that you didn't mean that. Somehow I saw something in your eyes. I wanted to look and stare at your face but I couldn't. The fact that you were already dated someone that time have made me to not to look at you. How could I stare at someone's boyfriend? I should have never said yes when you asked me to skype with you. I really wanted to say all those sweet words at you but yes, but I couldn't! I wouldn't want to hurt your girlfriend's feelings. She seemed nice. I could see that she helped you a lot with this break up thingy. It's good that you had someone to lean onto. That was the last time we skyped. We didn't ended our conversation well. It's okay. :)
I miss you. I still have those picture. Do you still have em'?