I miss.

IDK why am I writing about this but yeah, I still do miss you. Mom told me once that, it's okay to lose you. She told me that it is your loss, not mine. When she told me that I felt like 'OH NO IT'S MY LOSS LA AMA. HE WAS SO PERFECT. I WAS THE ONE WHO MADE HIM TO LEAVE'. She told me that it is your loss cause you did not give yourself a chance to see the real me, the new me, the current me. Mom and I have never talked about relationship and stuffs but IDK what truly happened that day, we just kept on talking about relationship. I told her about the break up thing after 3 months of the break up. I was not and never prepared to tell my parents about it. Yes, they saw me happy when I was with him, and of course I wouldn't want them to see me how bad I looked after he left. I used to get really excited when I talk about him to my family. Yes, everyone in my family knew that I dated him and yes, they were not that happy about it. Dad has been always want me to concentrate on my studies which I would never ever willing to do. Dad always think that if I ever got into any relationship, I might lose interest in my studies, which I never did. I never lose my interest in studies when I was with him, instead he was one of the reason for me to keep on studying those stupid subjects I never liked. Mom was not that much in shocked cause she knows that I have always like Chinese guys. Grandma was like ergh, 'Ain, you better find someone real, something that could last long. This is impossible. He is Chinese.'. Uncle Farouk was like, 'Haih ain.' Uncle Farouk met Kiat once and he told Kiat to take care of me before he left for Seattle, US. Ergh ergh ergh. That time we were not even together. Guess Uncle Farouk knew what was going on between me and Kiat. Cousins and the rest, they didn't care much. Sad stories of mine. LOL. But yeah, let's go back to the main thing, I MISS YOU. That's all. Good Night. 6 more days to a year of knowing you.
:)